The air is thin up here.
My breathing is heavy, my legs are
tired, and I carry my life on my back.
I stand above 3000 meters. Surrounded
by mountains and snow and this beautiful stretch of untouched
wilderness.
I feel small and yet a sense of
greatness at the feat of what my untrained body and mind are capable
of. I feel alive.
Steam rises from the bodies of the pack
horses, prayer flags flutter in the mountain breeze, and a light rain
begins to fall from heavy, low-hanging clouds.
This is Siberia. This is Altai. This is
the way to Shambhala.
After a week of trekking, you sort of
forget about showering, about the internet, about real life. As you
hike across fields, navigate rocky trails and follow rivers, you have
more time than ever to think. Your mind wanders like the path in
front of you. The weather, thirst, the body, family, Budapest, trees,
rain, hunger, cold, beauty, relationships, the future, the past,
aching feet, books, religion, life. And sometimes there is that rare
moment when you stop to breath and realize that you having been
thinking of nothing, absolutely nothing, because observing the world
around you is enough. This is the moment I love the most. I may be
sweaty, muddy and unshowered, but my mind is clean.
Suddenly, you find yourself back on an
airplane ordering tomato juice and returning to civilization. There
is WiFi, air-conditioning and toilets. You are surrounded by more
people in one minute than you saw on the trail in 10 days, and it
makes you more exhausted than 24 kilometers of hiking ever did. I
felt terrified in this moment, not only because it seemed like the
airplane could use a little maintenance, but because leaving Altai
meant that it was just one week until I left Russia. These two
magnificent journeys were both coming to an end and I wasn't ready
for it. I'm still not ready for it.
Hey Gia, don't know if you remember me, I was the 15 year old french lost student sitting behind you in a senior politic class in Redmond High... about 8 years ago. The kid you were making fun of one day because someone took me tanning " what? I cant' believe you went tanning!!!, why would you care, people you wanna meet dont care about the color of your skin!" Made me feel ridiculous at the time, it was true that it really was not something I would do if I was only listening to myself... but I never forgot your reaction, made me focus on what mattered to me, and not the way I wanted people to see me. When I read you, I can see that 17year old kid that you were, eager to go accross the world, caring about what really matters... people, nature, peace, freedom. Hope that your next adventures will bring you some new amazing experiences to live, and beautiful people to meet, I'm sure something is waiting out there for you.
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